Sunday, April 26, 2009

Sunday Cinnamon

You are entering my personal space,
which is defined as "able to see you."

19 comments:

Rabbits' Guy said...

That's another reason we shut the bedroom door!!!

Art D. said...

Good thing it's not defined as "able to hear you"!

janet2buns said...

Of course Cinnamon's hoomins know the Universal Rule of Bunnies: What mine is mine, and what's yours is mine. And anything you are thinking of getting, is mine.

Fleetie said...

Most depressed/depressing day for ages today. Been horrible.

I wish Cinnamon could come and sit on me and nudge my nose with hers.

thumpyfuzz said...

So sorry to hear that it is a rough day. Here is a virtual bunny nose nudge from Blizzard and Willow:-)

Fleetie said...

Thumpyfuzz, thank-you, and thank Blizzard and Willow!

Depression is horrible and it's been really bad recently.

It keeps getting worse and drugs don't work, so I won't even try them again; tried them so many times before, and always stopped because they made me sleep even less than I do now, which isn't much.

But the sight of bunnies does make me feel a bit happier. I love bunnies!

thumpyfuzz said...

Fleetie,

I m so sorry. I have struggled with depression for years and have managed to develop many stragegies to deal unmedicated. I am also thumpyfuzz on ravelry.com if you want to sign on and pm me.

Bunny hugs,

Kelly

The Bunns said...

Hey Fleetie ...

Here's a 10 Bunn virtual snuggle for ya!!!

Fleetie said...

Thumpyfuzz, The Bunns:

Thank-you. It means a lot. It's getting late now. It's 23:30 here now and I've got work in the morning. I'm worried that my state of mind and consequent attitude will get me sacked because I just don't CARE at the moment even though if I lost my job, I'd soon be homeless.

I just hope I can somehow sleep well; maybe have bunny dreams, and wake up feeling more hope. I'm sorry to complain like this. I hope I'll dream of twitchy bunny noses and long bunny ears and nose snuggles! I have 2 plush bunnies to snuggle with in bed.

thumpyfuzz said...

Hey Fleetie,

Check to see if your place of employment has an employee assistance program (EAP) to help you out. Most larger places will have them:-)

Kelly

Ijon Tichy the Nth said...

Fleetie

... sorry to hear that, hope you'll pull through ok.

Renee said...

Haha, love these captions :)

janet2buns said...

Fleetie: In a nutshell: Meds + cognitive therapy = relief. Tried and tried for years, it finally clicked for me a few years ago. Made 100% difference. Advice: keep on trying, you'll get there. May not seem like it now, but it will work.

Ijon Tichy the Nth said...

janet2buns said...

there being an exception to every rule, me thinks buns would definitely approve of that :-)

Fleetie said...

Janet,

Thank-you. However I tried various SSRI drugs and CBT on numerous occasions and the drugs were just unpleasant.

I'm just hoping life will pick and and I'll get a break before too long now.

Today (Monday) wasn't a bad as yesterday.

janet2buns said...

Fleetie: Stay in there!! Snorgles and head bonks to you.

mum of critters said...

catching up on my blogging from being gone all weekend -

great caption but responding to the comments and want to add my support to you Fleetie and if you're on Facebook hit me up - carri ann cassabaum - i've been through ages of depression and therapy and finally 20 years later have found a good manageable routine and if nothing else would be happy to be your friend and encourage you as you face it!

Fleetie said...

Mum of Critters:

Thank-you, too. I have found, though, that the whole thing about presenting myself to the G.P. (again...) and re-initiating the whole CBT and drugs thing just seems to reinforce an inner feeling of being a victim of the depression, and feeling sorry for myself.

A lot of the time I'm not actually crippled by it, and I would much rather let the bad times pass if they're going to, and try to "pull myself together". Some days, like Sunday, are unbearable, but some aren't. To re-start all the therapy again (it didn't work before anyway) and the drugs would take months out of my life and I'd be feeling sorry for myself the whole time. I don't think that's a good, or helpful course of action for myself right now.

I've been going through a very unpleasant 6 months or so because of friend/relationship problems, i.e. that's partly what's caused the last several months to be so horrible, i.e. there are concrete reasons for me to feel upset, rather than just a predisposition to feel depressed (which I do have). Drugs (or probably therapy) cannot (directly) remove those concrete reasons for being unhappy, so they won't work, and haven't ever worked in the past for me.

Anyway, this is Disapproving Rabbits, and it is not good for me to be dwelling on this any more here right now.

I really do appreciate all the kind words from everyone.

For the time being, lets get back to the bunnies!

Thank-you all again.

Boopalina luv said...

It looks like cinny is on one of those nature shows, where the show the animal in the wild ready to pounce or in bunny cases "HOP" lol